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Thursday, November 24, 2011

Grief and Gratitude




I know, I know is Thanksgiving Day...and I should feel grateful...yet, this morning, I am not feeling it...:( 

My mind’s been trying to come up with a list of things I should feel grateful for; and yet, I feel resistant…and that feels like a lump in my throat…it feels like sweating…it feels like nausea…it feels like crying…it feels like a big sigh…:(


I noticed every time I try to get to gratitude and force myself to “feel” it, there is resistance; and the reason being is: I need to make peace with grief, or goodbyes first…


  • Goodbyes to past friendships, lovers
  • Goodbyes to past hurts
  • Goodbyes to old thoughts
  • Goodbyes to the old Me…



I know grief is there to heal me!

Hmm…now, I feel movement of sensations through me…right there beginning in my tummy…wow…I feel smiley…and that feels like a big release…a beautiful vibration in my entire body…


What could I say with deep gratitude now?! Maybe that:


  • I feel alive
  • I feel wealthy in mind, spirit, and health
  • I feel giving
  • I feel loving with all my heart over and over again
  • I feel blessed for the beautiful gift of being a mother
  • I feel indeed grateful for the warmth and peace surrounding me…just to name a few…



And now, I can mean when I say….Have a Happy Thanksgiving Day!


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