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"Mary" is Me

Not sure about you, but almost on a daily basis I savor  the thought of indulging in my favorite cup of coffee at Starbucks…I get to work, and by 9am, my mind is conditioned to envision that awesome, hot, strong, complicated delicacy so tailored to my taste “my triple shot caramel latte”…  

As you know, lately, many Starbucks coffee shops ask for your name…to call you when your coffee is ready…Gosh, the most annoying thing ever!!!!…I often declined, just feeling weird to have my name yelled in a middle of a coffee shop where it feels like everyone is looking at you…  

Imagine if you mama or papa cursed you with a name like “Coco", “Dick”, “Princess”, "Babe" “Butch”, “Woody”, etc.…Imagine if the kid turns out to be anything but…”Coco”, “Dick”, “Princess”, “Butch”…etc…  

So, back to Starbucks…Recently, in the mood to “challenge” the “norm”…when asked to “share” my name…I answered proudly…”Marylin Monroe”!…Hmmm, she smiled, looked at me as saying …”Ya, that’s right…”, got my money, coded my inquiry on the cup…and along with a few more not to be named here customers, I waited anxiously to be “called” for my coffee…Oh, and here he shouts…”Mary – triple shot caramel latte”!!!!…I look around…everybody looks “around”…Alright, I get it...”Mary” is me!!!!  

NEXT PLEASE

  Gosh, I have so much to do…yet, I stop and write…Thoughts come and go…and I feel like I have to capture them somehow on a piece of paper…

People, dating, relationships…I look at myself and a few of my friends…going through the process of finding the “One” to complement us…(although, I know some think they do, but they don’t…they want someone to complete them…as in Need not in Want type of thing…but that’s a different blog.)

Been single for eight years (after an eight year not so pleasant marriage) and dated for the past five…I remember about my 1^st date about five years ago…The following day, the guy sent me an email (yep…no texting at the time, cause I ‘m sure he would have used it) saying something like he can’t date me no more cause I seem very naïve…and that I need to date more…Ouch!!! First date and He slammed me!!!   Yes, I was not accustomed to go on a 1^st base from the 1^st date…also, some of the discussions he would bring up I was sincerely blushing…Ya, ya, I know…some of you would say “You?”…Yep, me  …I am actually very shy…the assertiveness u see is actually a mask …Let’s say, I worked on it.

Ok, we agreed to stay “friends”…that’s when I realized I had an EGO…Yep, a big one……cause I asked to be “friends”…I didn’t want FULL rejection ya know…

Now, that I look back and having the experiences I do…when I meet someone recently divorced, broken up from a long term relationship, and finding out I am the 1^st date he’s had for a while…I say the same thing…Nope…Next please!!!  

I proceed to Experience

It's Sunday late afternoon…I try to run my last errand of the day…Shopping at Costco…Btw, I found out it's not a good idea to shop at Costco on a Sunday evening, but oh well, we learn don't we???

So, I look for parking… My mind is thinking…"There has to be an open parking spot …maybe one close to the main entrance"…which I was secretly hoping for ...

I proceed towards the main entrance and I see a car parked to my left with the backlights on appearing to leave…So, I wait and wait…lost in thought…as if I was supposed to wait…  

Hmm…then I remember…do I really have to wait??? How much longer should I wait??? What if they are not leaving??? So, with this thought in mind I proceed to drive forward…and sure enough…an awesome spot to my right (like the one I was only dreaming of), just next to the main entrance, had been empty all along…

At that moment, I couldn't help but smile at the Revelation…How often do we Hold on to things/people/thoughts doomed to negative outcomes…when by simply letting go of controlling these same things/people/thoughts we could experience something bigger, greater, and beautiful…

With that thought in mind, I proceed to experience ! Are you all with me????!!!